what a dream

i cant honestly believe it is here, after 88 months of waiting, when she waved over her shoulder, and the pursuit was on, it all culminated in lots of pain, and now the pursuit is over determined as i am to get safely in to work, and see her tomorrow nite, it is such a relief, thank you everyone who talked with me and believed in my skills enough to see me through it, appreciation is not enough to convey what i feel right about now, i am free, i get to sleep with the living goddess, why me is a question i will have for some time, even though i am the strongest and smartest boy on the planet, why would she choose me, i must have been pretty kind to her one day, and that is what i am and what all my closest friends have always told me: a lover, a believer, and not a fighter, i struggled for so long, that she thought i was moving too damn slow, potentially killing enough of the dream to make it seem like it would never happen, and now it is going to happen, if i can just follow the signs, and get in to work, she will be there, what a relief, i am so happy about it, i have looked for safety for so long that now that it is here, i dont know if i will be able to sleep, and may just type until the netbook runs out of juice, but i think i will be able to rest as i will want to stay up with her all weekend, and celebrate the NYE with my love, the girl you know as Norah Jones, what a relief, thanks babe, appreciate you waiting so long, sorry about that, but you got to admit the so-called plan is as big as it could possibly be, and i will always love you, thank you for choosing me, i very much appreciate your love, i hope i live up to your expectations, but i am only just getting started, once i find your safety in love, i will be one strong boy, instead of looking for answers i can simply ask you about it, oh how i have waited for you, thank you INannnana, thank you for selecting me to do your will, i will always praise you no matter what, it is a dream come true to see your whole life flash in front of your eyes, and the unattainable girl suddenly become yours, why me, why am i altogether so lucky, i worked really hard to get to this point, and now it is here, get to have babies with the sexiest girl on the planet, get to make companies, religions, and a family with her, it is sooooo sweet, i am super excited particularly cuz i get to hear her accent and dont have to live rather stealth-like anymore, i just get to live, and be happy, and listen to her jokes, and watch her move, and impress her, i have never showed my true potential and now i get to let it all hang out, following the Goddess process, and teach her to be the living goddess, as if she doesnt know already, she really is perfect, even if she will deny it, i love her i love her i love her i love her i love her, i lover her completely, what a dream, thank you for holding on honey bear, sweet girl, sexy azz, we are going to have amazing children as you can probably tell from my ode to sinead nierika, i hope you are ok that i have our whole life planned out, i am serious, i have been thinking about it non-stop since 8/1/03, when you waved at me, how did you know me, i cant wait to talk with you, and hang out and listen to music with you, it will be such a relaxing treat, thank you thank you thank you, i owe you big-time, and will work everyday of my life to prove to you how much i appreciate it, it will be fun, i am excited to meet your friends, and i am excited for you to meet most of my family, you will enjoy yourself, some normalcy in the midst of an insane life, considering what you have gone through to get here, you have earned my total devotion, i promise i will not wander, will not re-marry, i will be true, i am just super excited to see you, it is going to be intense, and then i will kiss you at midnight on friday evening/saturday morning, if you let me, i hope you do, i hope you accept me for being a silly boy, i will try and crack you up all the time, and get you to make me laugh, i always laugh at your antics from afar, i cant wait to see them up close, i miss everything about you, i hope you are comfortable with me, i am pretty easy going, and will not become a pothead, i feel really stable, and want to show the world that i am worthy of the most incredible woman on the planet, popstar, i love you, i can only imagine what you are like in person, please accept me for all my delays, i am sorry, i cant say it enough, i just didnt know enough how to do it, and now that i have Lilism, and Astro, and the GRR L Word, i think i have the plan for your kids to be safe, i have everything figured out, can you believe it, are you pleased with my efforts to get free so that you could come to me, lets have some fun, its been too much pain, lets do everything, i want to enjoy every moment with you, no fights, no drama sensitive endeavors, lets just try like heck to live as happily as we can, because after 2,600+ nites way from you, i want to enjoy every last one, i will be the answer at the end of the nite, i will be there for you, in the burning hours of the nite, i will rub your back, and talk to you sweetly, and make you tea, and even learn to cook, sorry i am not the perfect boyfriend, but a quick learner, just wait and see, i am ready, i am sooooo ready for you, i cant wait to see you, thank you for holding on, it will be a sight to be seen, to remake this world, and enjoy each other along the way, what do you think you up for some 88 and reverse, just take your time, no rush, just make it right, i will follow your lead, as i know you have this all figured out, i know you know what you need, and i will just watch and learn, but i think i am ready, i am free, and unencumbered, i feel great, gone is all the pain, just hold on for less than twenty four hours and the world will be ours, i wont make you d everything right away but the Goddess has me, i hope you can take me praying in the living room, it soothes me, and i am so thankful for you, rather stealth-like i am living, and now i get to break-free, and learn how to love for real, never had that, just been in training, thank you everyone who taught me well, it looks like i will just go by lilim for awhile, unless you want to call me by my name, i am all yours, lasting impacts of the training leave me breathless, i have been waiting forever for some safety and i think i got that with you, lots of people looking out for me, i am so excited, i can hardly contain myself, please be true, and i will never tell you any lies, will never do anything to harm us, and will be a good father, you have waited long it is time to get on to the implementation phase, i am done planning, i am ready, i truly am, just be ready for one excited boy, no tears, just a hug...,