underground, not for long

going through the motions, and realizing i have but a couple of hours until i find out the truth, what a sight it will to be seen, no one, and i mean no one thinks she is coming, at least they are doign their best to cage it, but i am just choosing to believe that the popstar knows who i am, and is willing to take a risk on me, i got to believe if she has been singing about me, that she has been tracking my writing, and if that is the case, she knows that now is the time, to move, and do it, and get this thing rolling, it would be grand if that were the case, i mean who else would she have had thrown that album together for, why would the lyrics resonate overtly so much with me, and describe my undress of my life, and the pursuit of her, why would i feel that she talked about the temple in 2009, early in the year, and then make the album lasting in my ears, though i have only heard it a handful of times, i am just going on the written-out lyrics more than anything, and the War Kong Wai film, and Kweli, and the memory of a sixteen year old girl in 1995 who cried when i left her, would she really go through the hassle of becoming famous just to get back to me, is it really that important, transcending time, yielding to nothing, she has me in her grip, and if its true, i submit, i cannot run any longer, you won, i am yours, forever, if that is all true, then it is ready, it is time to get back together, and this time will not leave you, if that is what you think you are one crazy little girl, but i respect it, i mean why not get married to someone who is so obsessed with me, because when i go in to relationships, i go all in, like this is the one, except this time it would apparently be reciprocated, i am tired of searching tired of looking for signs, tired of having to explain myself to everyone that i am not crazy that yes that Norah Jones is after me, for whatever reasons, and the challenges will be plentiful, i know that, i know they think you are a threat, and they should be scared if you do choose me, because i hate the lies as much as you do, i think, i live in it, and it sucks, so painful, so sometimes i dream, and everytime i dream, i think if you were to just see the Lilism/Astro/GRR L Word plan, you would see i could render the lies irrelevant, once and for all, if you see that, then you must be happy with what i have come up with, because you need some help, being in hiding is not your style, you would rather be out in the open, speaking your mind, with me to back you up, and i got you, all of this is covered and i will be one proud boy to be with you, Lilith, you can call me my birthname, i am yours, dont worry, you got me, dont stress about other things, we have it under control, just enjoy it, it will be finished soon, if you just choose the right path, and make the move toward me, i know you are weighing your options, but i think i have the best plan ever made, and i will still make an album with you, if you let me shave my head again, i feel invincible with the short hair, and will grow it out for you, if you want, someday, but if i can shave it, ill get on stage and praise the Goddess, i can do it, if you need me to, i kinda want to do it, ill have to practice a lot, but something tells me it will come naturally with a little trial and error in the studio, i think it is in time going to be o.k., a little rough going at first, but enough has been said and written to account for all contingencies, so what do you say, can you do it, can you make the move, do you have it in you, are you all set, lots of doubts around me, but i believe you can do it, i just think i will take care of all challenges for you, so you wont have to worry about anything, just trust me, and you will be free, try it out, and it will be rewarding beyond belief, everything i have written, it all comes down to today, i think, cant wait any longer, cant you see what i mean?...,