a new day

i can not yet stop, i am beaten and tied down but persevering amidst all the lies, they pile up, and then they just release like a wave over sand, washing away the pain, until i know of now rather than the never before, i dont know what to write, i am at a loss as to the direction my life is going to take this week, much to my delight in the great state of Michigan, i write to free myself, and just trust the Goddess for having chosen all of us to be part of Her kingdom, and me to go against the grain and be the scribe to this transformation, when it happens completely it will be knowledge that all will have, all see me in pain, in the lie, trapped down, but soon i will be completely free, free from the lies, that have run rampant over me, and have forced me to live according to someone else's plan, so that i can run away from it rather stealth-like, until i am forced to be a living example og the Goddess' work on this planet, yet i dont know what she needs from me, i told her what i needed and that was to show her face, and accept her role as Lilith, as in the living goddess, and yet she stays hidden, and rides me dominating my mind for not communicating with her, when all i do is geared toward her rule, she asks me to take risks to live in the lie, when all i do is want to free myself, an anchor is determined to never before rule me again, just as i knew, just as was predicted by me some two years ago, i am ready, and still she stays hidden, what more can i do, what more can i say, what more can i think before i kick in another door to free her, dont you remember i did that for you, and you are determined to stay hidden, while i risk everything for a chance to prove your existence, and yet you stay hidden, what much to my chagrin going against everything can i do, what do you need from me to overtly prove that i am worthy instead of altogether risk, this is just implementation, i am not afraid the war is winding down, the enemy is now breathing its last breath, and you want to stay in hiding, in time you will trust me, but now you think the cops are not with me, that the institutions that harm you are under my control, that i run everything, all at once, not part-time, all the time now, i am determined to prove my freedom, but you stay hidden, why Lilith, why not just break free and accept the calling i have made for you, am i not what you say i was?...,