final appointment

well i am at the final stop with the case manager before i either get to see you, or go in to the hospital, altogether nervous, but perhaps it will be both, though unlikely i will be kept in, all options are on the offering, talking as much as i do was bound to get me in to trouble, but dont really know of any other way it could happen, just be bold, and it will be o.k.,if you just believe, then we can be together, as crazy as that sounds, the only stipulation will be put on going through the institutionalization process of going in i will agree to print these words, so that you know that i did not give up on the dream, i simply could not get out of the way of myself, and had to convince you that i was the real thing, and i think you got that by now, so i am not afraid just going through the motions to see what the next step has in store for me, i always wanted it to be epic, when you came to me, never before determined like i am, can you reconcile the duality of the 2004 tune of me coming to you or distant memories, with the push i am putting on for you to step forward, and have a baby with me, and watch our kids grow up, dont forget what you said about never letting go, dont do it, just live out your dreams, and trust that i will be with you soon, that is all i am asking for is a little implementation, thanks to everyone for being so supportive instead of fear i have faith, and for helping me through this ordeal, i dont think i would have been able to do it without you, so take care tonite and maybe i will see you tomorrow, until then, just hold on to what is good, and not blame anything for the bad, we will be rather stealth-like alright, yours always....,,,,