dry wedding

so you do live in london, is that right, i mean this whole world in turmoil thing, and that being the only safe spot for the goddess in training means you are not in GRR?, im so amateur status, enough to make me second guess so much, but nothing about you, aggg, it feels so good to get some motivation to write again, my brain has been swimming the last couple of days, do you see what these thursdays do to me?, ill ask you lots of questions on the spot when i see you, and i hope you have the confidence to answer them for me, like who are you?, and who am i?, what are you doing falling for me, and what on earth are we gonna do when the weight of the planet falls on our shoulders instead of so-called governments, all for breakfasts soon enough, but until then i am just going to dream a little and take you off to a little private place i like to call our wedding day: so, i know you call the shots, this is a woman's world we are building, but i think its my job to take the planning off your to-do list, and plus i gave my preferences, and you seem to be down with them, are you really in London, how ya gonna get here, i may need to get a couple of military planes to escort you potentially coming here, but enough of that, you can figure that one out, as for our wedding, its dry, no questions asked, i dont trust anyone with a drink in their hand, and if i get to marry you (yesssssss!!!!), i want it to be ideal, you dont have to sing me a direct song, or give any vows, or do anything you dont feel comfortable with, but if you like wine, i would have a glass tomorrow, because that is the last time you will ever be tasting it, dry wedding all the way, in the church that i have talked at length about, and then followed in the JW Marriott for a transformative reception for some who want to take part, i dont have a guest list in mind, but i secretly want my 90 year old semi-dementia only living grand parent to be there, which will be tough, but she loves me, and she laughed two years ago when she heard i was pursuing you, and now i got ya, can you take it, it cracks me up, i dont care what the Goddess had planned for me since conception, it still boggles the mind that i get to marry safety, u r right?, i mean no lies, have all the little gurlfriends instead of boys one pussy can handle, but if you stay true to me you will be rewarded with one loyal guy, and a good planner at that, and sinead nierika will be proud of her daddy up until she becomes a better blogger than me, and then she will have to take my slave-training on the tennis court, and the discipline of never having a drink, i dont give one fuck worth of anything what her friends say because they will hear it from me as well, the day you get SN intoxicated off of one drink, is the last single lasting day that you will spend with my daughter, that is not to say i will be buying them copious amounts of marijuana, i think i wrote somewhere that it should be legal for 25 years-old and determined to not abuse it, but no drinking, i just cant take it, is that o.k.?, i have all that i can take from the systemic problems of society around me to let it enter our life, so sorry about rules, but i cant do it, no exceptions, o.k., back to the wedding, i like your dress on the dog album, you look very regal, and i used to lay out the accompanying poster when i first listened to it, and yielding to nothing it protected me when i slept alone a few times, and i love looking at you, so feel free to choose a different dress, but i like that one a lot, good memories, and i dont have anything really planned out for orchestration and choreography, but you do have to give me one dance at the reception to the last song on Spirit Chaser, and be funny, i laugh out loud at your antics all the time, so relax and be yourself, it only happens once in our lifetime, so you might as well make it a proud day, after sooooo long waiting, we gotta enjoy it, no matter what the weather in western MI, USA, are you gonna forgive me this week for making you stay in hiding, i need to know you wont be mad at me, ill do whatever you want me to do to make it up to you, ill force-feed Lilism down the brains of everyone, ill get Mia to show your bare azz on camera, ill do the dishes and change diapers, and do your laundry, and not make you own a piano if you just forgive me, i honestly didnt know, i wasnt stalling, i was just trying to figure it out, and i think i got it, at least enough to live, so our wedding, tempted to ask my college friend who doesnt drink much to be the best man, as much to my delight he was the only who listened to me when i said in 2003 that i needed to marry you, and now i almost gotcha, people are gonna be like who the hell are you, and what are you doing with the world's most unattainable woman, and im gonna be like she likes my words, thats all i can come up with, she sees safety, and i am destined to get a little cocky, i mean look at you, you are so beautiful it defies explanation, and awesome style, and sage words, and all that comes from struggling to be you, you did it, i think you are free, i am being as honest as i can be, i really think you are about a week from being free, and our son, if we are so lucky is going to be one helluva project, all that testosterone, all his mother's charm, and his dad's fighter instincts, we can do it, i believe it, and then Lauryn Lilith, if we are so lucky to have three, will be like whatevs, i am so over this prophesy stuff, can i just be allowed to dominate everything, and ill be worn out from SN, and LL will just have to have good luck because i wont have a clue how to let her live, partially in the shadow of her older sister, but her ownself, oh yeah, the wedding, good times, i almost dont want to have sex with you until 3/26/11 or whatever date you have in mind, but thats entirely up to you, your call, im amenable to anything you have in mind, gosh this is carrying on, lets wrap it up before my browser crashes and i lose all this loving material, i adore you, you are my favorite, u got me out of bed for eight years, maybe ill stop doting on you after awhile but i am enamored, and when dreams comes true they usually come through big, 5 grammies is nothing compared to my elated feelings of getting to see you in my presence, thats all i can say, just make it happen, get here safely, and build a life with me, i promise i wont simply disappoint, i have clothes on the floor and nicorette wrappers everywhere, but i like to clean, and i love u, so thats all u need to know, i believe in it fully, i have no reservations, i just want to never again have any doubts, so answer the worthy question soon about fulfilling our wedding day, it will be good, it will be simple, it will be grande, and it will be ours, that makes me very happy to think about, dont you think?, or is that an on the spot question you are tongue tied over, whatever u think about me, i will one-up it, i am positive of that, im just calm, and anxious at the same time, just wanting to meet the girl who made me dream big, and now that it is almost here, i can breathe again, be safe, stay funny, and just rrrrrreeeeelllllaaaaaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx, till tomorrow...,,,