completion of chase?

really trying to understand my life right about now, it is in turmoil, and is only solved by one move from a girl who i have been teaching about who i am, my marriage proposal exploded on the web, in the form of two books and countless entries on blogs, i am just waiting for her rather stealth-like to make a move, together we would conquer all of our fears, but im afraid by remaining separate, it is difficult to see how a new location will change much in enough, travelling around time seems to stand still when i think about her, but ive got to get through these next few days if it hurts me or no, i still will find a way to the girlfriend, she is important to me, i will do whatever it takes to secure a date with her, she has to see by now that i might be a little abnormal that i am also altogether committed to her, and her cause, if thats how she wants to see it, i would like for you to spell out what made you think i knew you better than you thought i might have already, because i could use some encouragement, right now, it is difficult to traverse through the days with everything but a promise to fulfill the date, and it will be done, but i got to know when, like if you cant amass the courage this week, what am i supposed to overtly do with my life, i am at a loss, if you do not come at all, what might be expected to do for her from there on out, it is tough to see, what about trying to be bold, and love me for who i am, just a kid with a dream that will not go away, i refuse to marry anything but safety, round-about logic only leads me down the path of pain, and i want to be done with it all, i am tired of girls trying to trap me, it sucks, why dont they just let me live, unless of course they realize that i am actually good enough to pull u, which is what my argument is, i cant stand any relationship that is not i and u, because it all seems so hard and only phony on the surface, and painful knowing the truth, why not tell me you will be different, why not sell yourself on something more than your nice azz and non-xenophobic voice, tell me u will support my crazy theories so i can live free, that seems to be the only way forward for me, i need some support up here, and only you are strong enough to do it with me, so why be afraid, why not laugh loud together with me, look back on this moment before the storm of expectations as relaxing and fun, and something that you knew would happen, i mean what could honestly stop it now, nothing will so live it up and come play with me, it will be something we can another day know we did, by looking back on the flirting, thats all i am asking for, is some sexual appeal directed at me, i dont care if it can be mis-construed as underage teen sex, i will bring you on-time out in the open, that way, and by you hiding, you only delay the inevitable, which is that we are going to be together, come anything in my way, i have been doing this for eight years, i can last another two days...,,,