whats going on

i figured you would like to know some details although i have no idea what you want to do, i surmise you would be willing to move in with me, if i am not in a relationship, which is understandable, i want new life, on my own, by quitting smoke breaks, instead of going down six floors of stairs, i will checw gum, eat candy, and hopefully come cross to some drugs that helps, that is where i am at, they make me re-coil, the taste is bad, i get nothing out of it, i am just doing it to have something to do, so if you keep me busy, i wont even think of them, though some fun stimulants would be helpful, its just time, before you come, and get annoyed that i was not done by the time you came, i cant promise everything, but its on my radar, i really dont like them, its just i feel so dopey from the medication, and i cant get going with just caffeine, i need something else in my body, ad adderrall seems to work well, granted i love them, so you would have to hold them for me, and only give me about three or four per day of 20 MG, or 2 XR 30 mgs, that seem to work the best, because then i just have to pop one in the morning, and one in the late afternoon and i can function as a productive dreamer, i stay on top of things, and would easily help get you going, if you are thinking what i can do, i can do a lot with a little help, i dont know what you are planning, but i have some ideas, that i will not pressure you in to, i just thought you might like some recommendations based on what i see from a basically outsider perspective, how to convert the skeptics of your sound and/or voice, i think it is silly, but you want to welcome all-in, and films help with that, if we can get you going with that, or if you want to make an album, a collaboration again might work well, thats what i have off the top of-my-head,

i asked the gurlfriend not to move in for some period of time, determined by your schedule, and what you can tell me, but i like the place as my oqn, and only want to share it if i feel good about it, after not having a good home for 7.5 years, i want something peaceful and stable, and i think i have the makings of that, if you want to get cable tv and watch shows thats fine, you just got to listen to music with me as often, because i go a little stir crazy in front of a screen, much to my delight i have all sorts of music to let you hear, though you probably are not a hiphopster by preference, i will give you history and political relevance to what you are trying to accomplish with your creativity, and you will see that i have been tracking for some time, all the players who would be able to help, so that will be good for you to hear, and i will want to hear your story, in time, like what are you doing online and why, am i being narcissistic about your intentions, because you seem to have a good time, i just want to have a real conversation soon enough, without the encumbrances of the world seeing it, i am pretty open, but that was out of necessity, not that i have said everything, i just wanted you to get a clear picture of where i was coming from, that is all, didnt want to have you surprised by anything, you should know overtly what you are getting in to, but i feel stable, and ready to take on the responsibility, especially if you live with me....,

there are lots ore things to say, but i just wanted to know that for the first time in like ten listens so far i like your latest contribution, it hit me last nite, when i realized what i had to do, after txting her, and having a fight about it, i think i altogether made myself clear, and i dont think it will be too much trouble to implement, but your presence and in-the-meanwhile some online support would be greatly appreciated, i told my sister about last nite and asked for her help, which may or may not break-the-ice, but at least its somewhat consistent, i dont know what i am doing some of the time, but go in with blind faith, and see what comes out, and it usually works that has been my test, and it usually simmers to the top as truth, its always an ordeal, and i wish you could be more explicit, but as long as you try and make me feel wanted through this all, i will be able to do it, if you go away in fear of offending someone, then it will be difficult, let me work out the details you can just help by providing verbiage support, and maybe not fighting, listening to house music right now, wonder if you will ever do some partying with me, i know you want to get pregnant, i hope so, i want you as well, enough time has passed, but we should be able to stay active in the streets, i still want to do that interview, if you are game, and i imagine you will have a few ideas, so ill leave it at that, just encouragement through the over-the-top process, feel free to ask any questions that have not been addressed, i will do my best to respond in a timely decree of time, that is all...,,,