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so, i am going to get now an apt., for the gurlfriend and i to move in to, but will jump at the chance to be with you, so you dont have to wreck your brain that you will have to wait forever, the gurlfriend will have to understand that i need to get to my girlfriend, after eight years of waiting, instead of much longer it has to come soon, there are things that need to be done, and enough time has seemingly been spent in the pursuit, so we will get it done, u just have to execute on your plan, and not stress about me, i am ready, and willing to do honestly whatever it takes to see you, if that means blowing up friendships or familial relationships, i will do it, there is nothing that is altogether going to stop it now, i am not going to deny you for the sake of anything, you just got to believe, and realize that thousands believe, and though its not going to be easy, it will be done, so hold tight to throughout the dream phase where we can soon enough make it to implementation phase, over time, this will even be considered just a memory, there is nothing that is going to stop it, nothing stopping it, so relax a bit, and get ready, dont stress, i am yours, nothing will change that, not drugs, not azz, not finances, nothing is going to stop it, so i know you are under a lot of stress, trying to make sense of it all, and i see another thursday without an announcement from you approaching fast, but i will be ok, i will not deny u when the day comes, will not say no, will only yield to stoplights, nothing else will stop me in my tracks from seeing you, i want to give you a big hug, and say thanks for watching out over me, honestly i owe you a lot, so dont worry, i will want to hear u laugh, and talk, cannot wait to hear your voice, it is almost here, so stay strong, and try and keep it all in perspective, you will be happy, i promise u you will be happy with me, i am pretty strong right now, much to my delight, i get to touch you, and see that even though it has been a long time it is all done and all the pain is over sometime this month, i think it will happen, and if you are really strong, you can be content with your decision, to turn your life over to a boy, that you have known about and sang to and desired for sooooo long, just trust and it will be here, laughter will get you through...,,,