the scribe of lilith

how do i move past the past, how do i launch a secondary career without much in the way of material to rely on, and not much in the way of things to relay on, it is a conundrum, when allies are wanting of perspective, and all you have is some lines about the great goddess that other people have pieced together, perhaps it would be best to do an other attempt at why she is the singular force, why all the lies build in to believing exactly the opposite of what they tell me, and that is not that she does not exist, but that she is not evil, She is all powerful, and onmi-present, how do i make the case, when all i have is some historical texts, and an emotive position that she is clearly the best diety ever created, how do you prove a deity let alone that she is feminine, hwo did people grapple with this issue, how did they create her initially, and how does she live on, in amulets, in folklore, in feeling, in possibility, in my writing, in my ways,

that is what i attempt to do with all my writing and i can say that there is another way of living by how i live, am i crazy, for sure, no doubt, definitely, but at least i carry on trying and looking to get more invested in my own life, and what i will try and simply say is how do you prove or at least understand the goddess, how do i know it to be true, when it cannot be proven, well, i have taken the easy way by proving the counter-thesis is false, that she does not exist, is false, by shooting-the-moon, i should not be a writer, a musician, an artist, and i for sure should not get the piano player in to town, for me to meet and talk with, or perhaps it wont happen, and ill be left to say to all of you who have picked up this URL or any other of the dozen outlets that i speak my love for the female deity, yes i was wrong, i disproved the goddess exists with me, so maybe she does not exist,

so, yes, i am playing games with the goddess, would she rather stay in hiding, or does she want to intervene in my life, and help me get the book and the album in to the songstress' hands, and prove my posts are full of invective that is positive, does she want to see one of her young disciples to fail in such a public way, because i will not talk in other ways, like there is a new deity come October 25th, but i will be saddened, that this whole pursuit was for naught, can you imagine, 400 pages later, and it was all a hoax, 2 albums worth of lyrics, and it was not her all along that riding in the moonlight, showed me the way, can you imagine, well of course you can because you are not pronouncing your love for the female deity, like i am, you are not reading my links all over the place, you are not buying my book, you are simply scoffing at my references, and at me,

or perhaps you like that i am crazy enough to say it, and just have not done any research, and this is the type of person i write for, to provide then things that i find through the process of tests, and challenging the goddess to dance around with me, and show me the joy of the universe, the sum of the planet's total, and give me a chance to make an argument to her lovely prophetess, since it looks like the plan as written in the book, will remain fiction for some time, how i am going to communicate with her is unknown, and that is why i have left all decisions up to the goddess as i am just following plans already made, i am but here to explain what someday will be the conventional wisdom of the day, again, as she once lived high, and was treated poorly, and this bad treatment has left her in hiding the great goddess had to attempt atunement with future generations, how frustrating, it is all left up to me to prove or disprove, in direct intention to show that the goddess is truly around, and working through me,

again, i know i am crazy, i know the lilm hagen persona, has left the constraints of normal living behind, i apologize for that, i apologize to the popstar for the pursuit, i apologize to once and future allies for the pressure i am putting on you to associate with me, but its still too fun to give up, you should try it, its been a hilarious process, and even though i am insane, i am not dangerous to anyone other than the goddess' reputation for having ascribed my self to her purpose, let the music reign, let house and electronica return, let good parties live, let raves become safe as they should be, let life be enjoyable for all, let the good goddess come to life through my works, and ultimately that these words known by love to be true,

that is all i ask for, not much to consider, just some simply attempted efforts: safety, love, freedom, and truth, and good beats, thats all i ask for in my living process for the next 5 years......