the charteusse chanteusse

the girl we know as Norah as a main actor in my book, has many names, none more descriptive than piano player, as she is a first rate musician, a second rate actress, and a legendary comedian, if you can pick up on her antics, but this proposal is going to be done pretty soon, with no outlets for distribution, no plan in place, no back-up plan to undertake, after all the words written and some never put to permanency in the blog entries or the book, it is seeming like it was all for naught, none of my girlfriends want to become liliths, and though i still lohembak them all, it was with disappointment, that i could not get a GRR L word to fall-out on to the streets of this fair city,

i have finished the book, save some typos, and i have publsihed all my lyrics, and i know the lovely lady who would make a great screenwriter for my film, but it appears as this will not come to pass, it will sit on my shelf all my years, with me wondering: where could it have taken a different route, but its ok, i dont have any regrets, well maybe i should, but today i am still going on like nothing major has happened, in my life in the past four months, when a lot has, all the goddess inspired lingo, and all the content, added up to something i am sure, but i cant seem to get anything moving from a creative standpoint at the moment, so still need to develop a plan B, someday,

and with a book that will never fully see the light of day, there is some apprehension on going too far down the path again, i would like to have an outlet for creative nonfiction, or in the very least expression so maybe this poetry prose thing will kick-in, or perhaps not, we shall see, how it all unfolds, in time, but there is not enough of my energy to look back and surmise, i was mistaken, i will just have to go forward and hope like hell that it makes sense somehow, that is all i can do at the moment....