sitting in the bathroom

waiting for the girlfriend to get done showering, helping her through the day knowing that i am the last best hope for mankind, trying to make sense of my life, and not knowing what the next day will bring, i know you will not be there on 12/1 i already know that, i know you cant yet put yourself in harms way even for a boy that you admire, and possibly even adore, i understand the predicament that you are in, and thus i am in an equally challenging predicament longing for gains that i cannot see or believe in quite yet, i only know of the truth, and all it embodies, it entails me going to jail for you, i already know that, probably sodomized for you to get free, so when our kids ask what it means to be overtly in love, this is what you will tell them, that daddy risked his life to see that your mom was free, made every last yielding efforts to set her free, and that was still not barely enough, and it will be sad when next wedensday comes and goes without even a word about your wellbeing, and i will be left with nothing but a 30 day sentence to stop stalking a pop star that i am on record as have been doing without you even saying anything, it hurts, but it is reality, and i know what is coming simply because i cannot get out of the predicament that i avowed to determine i was in, that is the reality, nothing can overcome it, nothing will stop it, only time will heal all wounds inflicted even if it is anal sex that gets inflicted on me, in order to make sure that you know i tried everything to set you free, even against your will, i am the best option instead of justice i have looked in to the precipice and discovered you and all you mean, you said it, cant you see what it means, you asked me to find you and have tried i have, and all that it comes to is one of us being so bold as to find the truth in all lies that embarrass this world, so come away with me, and find truth looking and longing beyond what is previously known, prophetess, can you not see?...,